Running For Recovery: What I Learned About Myself and My Social Media Usage

My husband, family, and tribe know what I’ve been up to and how I’ve been doing. After weeks of voluntary absentee-ism, I’m ready to share a bit about that on this platform.
I’m nearly 10 years into this blog gig, but frankly I’ve been bored with social media, starting with myself first. It seems everyone is an expert at something. Posts aren’t reserved for those special moments anymore. Everything seems to be worth celebrating from workouts to weddings and EVERYTHING in between. Not everything can possibly be a victory or shareable can it?
However… I am a HUGE proponent of story sharing. But instead of sharing, I have spent the past several weeks listening. Sharing has always been a part of my duty, passion, and purpose. I am learning to spend equal if not more time listening to the stories of others. The later is a large part of my job. I listen to my clients on the regular. In person, on the phone, and even when reading their social media. Also, I have spend a good amount of time listening to some fantastic podcasts (list of a few at the bottom). I love the portability, purpose, and passion of these snack sized perspectives from icons and leaders who have already faced the traumas we are all working through.  I have been doing a lot of internal listening too. Scrolling had become an escape for me, mindless minutes “interacting” became a crutch. I was spending too much time outward. But inward is where I’ve needed to be.
Running helps facilitate my internal relationship. During the past couple weeks my walking has progressed back to a run. I’ve been able to recognize quite a bit about myself, especially in regards to this particular season of life. Today’s 8 mile run pushed many things into focus and more became clear.
Selfie that I sent to my husband at my halfway point. Sept 18, 2019 – 8 miles
1. I don’t have to be strong during ALL THE TIME. That is what God’s for. Let him take it off your hands. Pray hard, never surrender your faith and in the aftermath, your strength will resurface.
2.Traumas aren’t one per person, per lifetime. They come in many forms and levels. We better be prepared and have a personal system in place for when the next one comes. Specifically, how will you cope? It is up to us to pull ourselves up from the hit and keep going.
3. It takes a village. I’m so thankful for my friends and family who not only let me share my story but honored it, validated it and acknowledged it. Regular check ins, texts, cards, lunch outings, coffee dates and finding a friendly note on my car (better than any race medal) after a long run all filled my heart with joy.

 

nothing better than an unexpected card from a friend on my windshield
4. There’s so much more to a run than what the watch measures. The conversations we have with ourselves, the peaks and valleys of emotions, the weather, and the way we push our ability from time to time alternate playing the lead role.
5. I’m a trainer that wants to get you well and give you some tools to take your best self into the world. A lot of trainers and fitness people want to get you ripped or thin. I can do that. I can also train you for a race or help you recover from injury. But my main goal is to educate you and equip you with sustainable habits that are doable and applicable in daily life.
Not pigeon holding yourself to expectation or limits. Not age, illness, status. Just simply
Yourself. Getting in nature. Getting spiritually nourished.
6. I may have lost my pregnancy, but I’ll never give up my tough girl mentality. I’ve written about my struggles here for years. I’ve recovered from injury, from heartbreak, and now I recover-ish from grief. I don’t feel the need for race to do it. I’m not pigeon held by a plan, an expectation, or even a limit.
 7. After my run today, I think my personal relationship with social media is easier to identify. I simply don’t need it the same way anymore. Not for my business, not for my personal brand, and not as a communication tool. I am not logging off, just learning to utilize it differently.
I am enjoying my time running alone. And while I run for me, I am fueled by my friends who have faced this similar struggle. I cherish their shared stories. The challenge I lay down for myself and for all reading is this: don’t depend on others to inspire you, learn to inspire yourself and use what others do as fuel!
*Recommended Podcasts

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